Proper indepth learning materials?

Hi there, I’ve really been trying to avoid asking this question, but I’ve done the “quickstart thingies”
and looked trough unreal’s Videos multiple times, but none of them start from scratch

I come from a background of limited experience, I know some basic C#, I’ve been playing around with RPGmaker but that’s about it, when it comes to learning do I kinda need something from scratch I can build upon instead of being thrown directly into how to add a camera shake, seeing, it’s great and to most people does it probably give some sense of Empowerment “like Look what I can do”, but I’m afraid I’ll have to admit I’m a stuborn girl when it comes to that

Seeing I’m just left even more confused than I were before?

can anyone recommend a good place to start, ( starting from scratch (ground up) )
Unfortunately don’t I know a single person working in this field, so I can’t exactly throw weird questions to people on skype, but I guess the Documentation will be in depth enough for that.

but if somebody could point me in the direction of some good books/tutorials
starting from ground up. Would I really appreciate it.

with Love
Nyx